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knox college [11 Nov 2003|10:15pm]
I visited Knox over the weekend and really, really liked it. I feel Knox could help me become the best version of myself (to quote the president's introduction to the open house). I like everything about the school. Its quirky traditions, its liberal stance, its strong academics, beautiful campus. Its just the right fit. Getting in is a concern for me. I just don't think I deserve it. The interview went okay..... I worry that I sounded silly. I don't know. I just really want to go there. Its most definetly my #1 choice. Beloit#3, Earlham #2. If I get into all three, I have no idea what I'll do.... I'm so overwelmed, excited, and scared shitless. I got my ACTs up to a 24 (math=20 science=20 reading=31 english=26). The applications are sent. Just have to send the application fees.
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[07 Oct 2003|01:51pm]
this journal is now friends only. reply here if you want to be a friend. thanks muchos or what not.
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[24 Sep 2003|06:08pm]
okay. I need to get a new livejournal sn. someone discovered this site by my own sheer stupidity. this person would gladly use my lj to manipulate and degrade me in any way he can. i need a lj code. if you can hook me up let me know.
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[22 Sep 2003|06:50am]
im fucking pissed.

I want to go visit a friend. However, my psycho + annoying extended family is coming at the same time. UGH. UGH. I can't fucking go. My grandma is uber bitch x 88940193841999.

I watched Pulp Fiction. It is now my all time favorite movie. If you haven't seen it, watch it now, dammit. Its the best shit.

take this quote...

Jules: What does Marcellus Wallace look like?
Brett: What?
Jules: [pointing his gun] Say "what" again. SAY "WHAT" AGAIN! I dare you, I double dare you, motherfucker! Say "what" one more goddamn time!
Brett: He's b-b-black...
Jules: Go on.
Brett: He's bald...
Jules: Does he look like a bitch?
Brett: What?
[Jules shoots Brett in shoulder]
Brett: NO!
Jules: Then why you trying to fuck him like a bitch, Brett?
Brett: I didn't!
Jules: Yes you did. Yes you did, Brett. You tried to fuck him. And Marcellus Wallace don't like to be fucked by anybody, except Mrs. Wallace.

Enjoy, le big mac, yo.
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[17 Sep 2003|12:40pm]
An Intangible Reflection of Society in Music via Beck

To the casual observer Beck seems to be dribbling out lyrics with no meaning at the speed of Wile E. Coyote. However, Beck’s writing is far from insignificant. Beck explores the world’s changing society and instead of being boringly blatant, he chooses an original way to explain his observations. He intentionally makes his lyrics difficult to understand, so the listener must think to understand the words. Therefore, the listener must also think more deeply about the issue or issues Beck brings into focus. An excellent example of this technique is in one of Beck’s most popular songs, “New Pollution”.
“New Pollution” relates to Women’s power in society since the feminist movement and the battle feminists have with conservative society. “She’s got a cigarette on each arm” (Line 1 Beck), speaks of a woman’s independence today. However, many women suffer while reaching for independence, “She’s alone in the New Pollution” (Line 5 Beck). Like many musicians, Beck is politically liberal and supports the feminist movement, which explains his message.
Most of the lyrics speak of the degree of women’s independence. Beck describes women as fearless and interesting, but they must still suffer consequences. For example, “She can talk to the mangling strangers” (Line 8 Beck) speaks of women’s courage, but a woman must also cope with “Riding low on the drunken rivers” (Line 18 Beck). Therefore, Beck chides conservative society for challenging women’s independence and enthusiastically supports the feminist movement.
Beck may seem ridiculously complex, but he actually just intends for us to think in a complex way. “New Pollution” speaks of women’s issues that are more complicated than the average person would think. Beck hopes for the listener to go beyond simplistic views and ponder how we feel about issues related to social justice. Beck argues that if we continue to encourage malicious ignorance and unreasonable conservatism American culture will lose its energy and excitement. Beck makes his listeners’ realize a mind should never be wasted.
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5 guys I would bang [10 Sep 2003|09:39pm]
5. Jude Law He has the most stunning eyes, his british accent, and a silent intellectualism. I'm sorry about his wife, but now he can start dating me.
4. Jake Gyllenhaal He is an amazing actor (The Good Girl, Donnie Darko), has a hip last name, a yummy body, and lovely eyes.
3. Owen Wilson Broken nose. Blond locks. Hilarious... nuff' said
2. Robbie Williams I lust after this man guiltily. I lust, nonetheless.
1. Johnny Depp Its almost passe to want him, but I still do. He can act, he can look good, and he can be my lover.
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[08 Sep 2003|03:22pm]
its all over now. i can't take all this shit anymore. and its all everyone's fucking fault. you did nothing. all of you.
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[08 Sep 2003|09:52am]
I really need to get out of Decatur. I meet these people and I'm nice, but if they were in my mind and heard my cynical and somewhat judgemental observations, they would hate me. I keep my opinions to myself much more than I did in the past. This happens mainly at work. I used to always say what was on my mind and despite the consequences, it made me a little happy inside. I was proud of my thoughts and I had some faith in myself. However, ever since Brit Lit the space in my mind that had confidence is non existent. There are times when I think.. I'm so much fucking smarter. But there are times as well, when I just want to fucking scream. Work was awful Saturday. A combination of working almost 7 hours (being exhausted), having a manager bitch at me (i deserved it, mind you), and the completely tactless and self-absorbed comments of my co hostess (a person who i cannot discuss my thoughts on except within this space because I don't hate her, she just makes me mad sometimes), brought me to tears. I'm wishing my life away, but I wish I could control my emotions better. I am not a ENTP, but ENFP, I think.
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[07 Sep 2003|04:01pm]
i was doing really great for a few days. i was almost completely blissed out. but lately i just feel like crying all the time. and i fucking hate myself. zoloft really should be my best friend. i cannot get anyone else to like me.
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[07 Sep 2003|08:28am]
LiveJournal Haiku!
Your name:semisweet16
Your haiku:everyone keeps tell
me i don't know what i can
say that is friends take
Created by Grahame
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the carpenters will kidnap me [04 Sep 2003|04:47pm]
I've discovered my greatest fear.

The Carpenters.

First of all, the time is completely absurd and disturbing.
Second, I don't understand how two people can smile so continously.
Third, the music is creepy in a someone-is-going-to-molest-me kind of way.

no. god no.

how could the above be comforting?

i think they will come in the middle of the night and kidnap me. I am afraid.
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dude.. [03 Sep 2003|10:14am]
my philosophy class at rcc has been enlightening on many different levels. I walk into class about 5 minutes early and I plan to review some notes quickly, just in case we have a quiz. Two male somewhat attractive students walk in.

Boy1 w/ ironic pink backpack : dude, do we have test?
Boy2 w/ silly hair: man, i didn't even read the chapter, man..guess i better start
Boy1: we better not have a test, I'll flunk man.
Boy2: Dude..

note: boy 2 fell asleep in class.

I'm debating what my first paper will be on. I think I may right about the shinto perspective on god, and argue for its validitity. I'm really sick of society sterotyping asian religions. We've just read the teleological and cosmological arguments for the existence of God, which I totally understood (at least on a basic level). However, the ontological argument is a bit more elusive. I've read 1/3 of the chapter and I a bit confused.

I'm so psyched. I got a 93% (A-) on my essay test for Honors English. I was completely expecting to get like a B or C on it. I really do <3 Mrs. Dial.
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china-blue.org [01 Sep 2003|12:04pm]
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humiliated on two different levels [31 Aug 2003|08:48am]
1. guy i like, getting married.. good thing i kept it secret. moved on from that one.
2. fell on my ass HARD whilst walking on a slippery floor. my back still hurts, and ass will be bruised. being a fat ass has its advantages, i suppose.

im sorry for whining, but my life sucks. sometimes i really hate myself
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'ello.. [30 Aug 2003|12:35pm]
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*Name: Kat

*Nickname(s): Kitten, Catalina, Katsu

*Sex: La Femme

*Age: 17

*Ethnicity: cacuasian

*Location: between the capital of illinois and chicago

*Favorite Bands/Music(no more than 10 please):
-sleater kinney
-elvis costello
-the clash
-the sounds
-velvet underground
-tori amos
-the eels

*Favorite Item of Clothing:
my crocheted pastelish blue cow boy hat

*Favorite Store:

*If somebody called you a fag, what would you say to them?
"no, im not, are you? .. hint: QUIT being a homophobic asshole."

*You're waiting in a long line at a grocery store, and you happen to be in a hurry.. a really fat, smelly woman moves to the front of the line with her
twinkies, do you say anything to her?
"umm, could you please get behind me, my boyfriend is in a bad mood, and you wouldn't like him when he gets violent"

*Do you think you're hot?
hot as in too warm, sure.

*Are you a fan of "the scene" or "scenesters"?
i don't try to put myself in any image, so i don't appreaciate it in others.

*Someone offers you five thousand dollars to do a stand up comedic show in front of hundreds of people, only if you're actually funny(of course),
your first act/joke?:

"A first grade teacher is explaining to her class that she is a Republican and how nice it is that a new Republican president has taken office. She asks her students to raise their hands if they, too, are Republicans and support George Bush. Everyone in class raises their hands except one little girl. "Mary," says the teacher with surprise, "why didn't you raise your hand?" Because I'm not a Republican," says Mary. "Well, what are you?" asks the teacher. "I'm a Democrat and proud of it," replies the little girl. The teacher cannot believe her ears. "My goodness, Mary, why are you a Democrat?" she asks. �Well, my momma and papa are Democrats, so I'm a Democrat, too." "Well," says the teacher in an annoyed tone, "that's no reason for you to be a Democrat. You don't always have to be like your parents. What if your momma was a criminal and your papa was a criminal, too, what would you be then?" "Then," Mary smiled, "then we'd be Republicans."

*Do you like slipknot?
i hate heavy metal. in all shapes and forms. </lj-cut>
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[28 Aug 2003|05:08pm]
why am i so fucked up?
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disturbingly AWWWW [25 Aug 2003|07:42pm]

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Kate [23 Aug 2003|11:41pm]
Kate is..
my dearest + closest online friend. she is incredibly mature, funny and just downright awesome. I need a lj code for her to start a livejournal. please give me one. thank you.
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[22 Aug 2003|06:40pm]
The rose is a rose,
And was always a rose.
But now the theory goes
That the apple's a rose,
And the pear is, and so's
The plum, I suppose.
The dear only knows
What will next prove a rose.
You, of course, are a rose--
But were always a rose.

-Robert Frost
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[21 Aug 2003|09:46pm]
i got to get rid of this negativity. its just annoying everyone around me. whats interesting, is i have been bottling it up inside me at school and work. i'm usually one to show all my emotions, but i've been hiding it lately. the people who i have been putting it on, such as rachel, cantxstop and kate-- they have been more than tolerant. see this post as a formal apology for all the heaps of depresing talk i have forced upon you guys. to all my online friends: i love you guys so much. please talk to me. i feed on talking to new people. it makes me happy.

please im me. im isolated and bored. i need someone to connect with, and some of you mean something special to me.
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